What was that all about! This shouting and screaming and sneering and
direct and indirect insults aimed at me is not amusing or cool. Many men,
husband types and fathers, do what you do. Maybe it is their male menopause
kicking in. Maybe it makes you middleaged guys feel all manly and your wrinkled little
penises get all hard and strong. I don’t know. I’m presuming. But man, it’s
annoying. You, Husband, choose meal times to be nasty. Well I can understand why you
swing into Hell-And-Damnation mode, because I have raised, avoiding you during
the day and night, to a fine art form.
So I pretend to work at the computer till 3
am. Actually, as you have rightly accused me, I AM just fooling around on the
Internet. I have told you so, but you think, I’m just being a smart-ass as
usual and that I am actually doing some writing. But hey Idiot! There are no
cheques coming in, so obviously, I’m not working. If I am, I’m doing it for
free. And you know you hate that. But then again, I could be working for free
in the hope of getting a whole lotta
moolah when someone decides to publish me for money. So maybe that’s what you’re
thinking, during the long hours I spend backing you while you listen and watch
depressing news on television.
This is how I avoid you during the day and night. I come to
our bedroom much after 3 in the morning. Strange that you still – after 32
years of marriage – cannot call it our
bedroom, to you it is always “the room” not even in capital letters, as if it
is just a hole in a wall that you and I happen to sleep in. The room where you
play around with crap that you think you are recycling, but crap still retains its essence – which is crap. You think you
are cannibalizing all those electronic items for a later date, but you never
use them again. You end up with several spare parts and tiny pieces of
electronic junk which you carefully put away into old plastic pill boxes. Man,
it’s still JUNK! All those bits and
pieces could have been given away to the junk collectors, but they lie broken
and forgotten in recycled pill boxes in our store room.
So I come to the room after 3 in the morning; generally
after finishing a few chores, it’s closer to 4 am.
I wake up at 9. Pretend to do yoga till 10 am. Deep breathing invariably ends up with deep
sleeping in between easy asanas. I emerge at 10 am, have my breakfast, read the
newspaper so I don’t have to see your face. Sit in the loo for a good half-hour
doing interesting things like reading, or playing Sudoku. Then it’s chores
time, cleaning, dusting, cooking depending on the day of the week, because I
don’t do all every day, much to your annoyance.
I serve lunch at 2.15. I delay my appearance at the dining
table by tidying the kitchen and wiping down the sink and counter. If I’m
lucky, you are hungry and finish your lunch before I reach the table. Sometimes I’m hungry and I fiddle and fart in the kitchen
after lunch. Those are the times when you really let ‘er rip.
By 2.30 pm you head for your afternoon nap happy that you
have asserted your position as Boss in the household and I have been duly cut
down to size. You don’t emerge until 5 pm. See? From midnight to 5 in the
evening, I have had direct interaction with you for a total of 15 minutes. Yes,
you make a valiant effort to start a blazing quarrel, by making provocative
statements while I am fiddling around in the kitchen. Sometimes your hard work
pays off and we are in the middle of a huge argument and you can bring out your
vast arsenal of insults against me and my assorted family members. But those
days are fewer now. I have grown cunning with age.
I have learned that if I hang on to the computer, I don’t
have to have a conversation with you at all, if I just answer your rants as you
listen to the news on television with an , Uh, huh, uh-huh, ah, aha. Hey, I’m
good at faking interest and not just at tea time.
You go out for your walk at 6.30 and glorious peace reigns
until 8 when you are back. I sometimes hear you ranting or insulting the
neighbours who have not been quick enough to dive back into their houses before
you saw them. You think you are being humourous when you insult them, but they
all dislike you and humour you only because they know that when they are in
trouble, they know you will help them, even if it means risking your own life.
Because that’s the way you are. You are a good man, but a major pain in the
ass.
My family (they love you by the way, they don’t know you
detest them) tell me it is my fault. They tell me you are not as sharp of tongue as I am. My wit
is hurtful they say. Maybe they are right. Maybe you should have married a deaf
and dumb woman like the deaf-mute down the road who has the hots for you. Only
a deaf-mute would have the hots for you, because she cannot hear what you say.
You insult her too, but you smile your nasty smile while doing it and the poor
woman thinks you are just joshing.
But back to avoiding you. I get dinner on the table,
cunningly I time it for 21.51 hours. I need just 8 minutes to finish eating dinner.
I carry my dessert to the sofa on time to watch my TV programme at 22.00. You
move to the computer, self righteously, because you are paying for the
electricity and you damned well have earned the right to use the computer. You
play Free Cell until midnight and then retire for the night. I get back to the
Internet at midnight and fool around until 3 am.
As marriages go, this is an
awful situation, but unavoidable since you are highly uncomfortable with pleasant happy conversation. You are
only happy watching the smile run away from my face, and to be fair, anyone else’s
face. That’s the way you are. As far as
I am concerned, it’s an excellent system for my peace of mind. Like with a snarling dog, direct eye contact must be avoided at all costs. I have reduced direct eye
contact with you, Husband. to just 24 minutes in 24 hours. Not bad I say. Not bad at
all. Less hassling than taking the
cleaver to you.